I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.
Stephen Chbosky,The Perks of Being a Wallflower
Well what’s new? Are you satisfied with the part you have cast yourself in? I get bored of sitting and waiting. Are you sure you don’t want to act? It seems that you have decided to become a reactor rather than an actor— everything around will determine your life. The play is going to go on whether you sit in the theatre or not. It will even play to an empty house and so you may as well try out. Vicarious experiences remind me of a line from Doctor Zhivago:
‘Man is born to live not to prepare for life.’